I have been trying very hard to be a good wife for Renly. He is to be King and have all the pleasures necessary for his life. I tell him that daily. He should do as he pleases and get whatever he wants. It is quite difficult at times to still be a maid. I have asked him to put a child in me. I have explained to him how important this is. I despise the people that mock my husband behind his back. They are talking and their words are not kind. I will do whatever he desires so I may be with child. If my brother, Loras pleases him, I should like to ensure that he is there too. It may be sad for a wife to offer to be with her husband and have another man near them. It is not for her own benefit, but for her husband. I will do anything to ensure that my King shall have an heir. I care not if it is a prince or princess. He needs someone by me. I need to press him further. I need to have this done. Our kingdom depends on it. Renly must be coaxed to see it my way. He thinks me beautiful, but he cannot love me. He cannot desire me like he desires my brother. I shall work on him until he does. Our marriage holds the kingdom together. We need to stay strong.
Personally, I have some trials of my own. My heart is both blemished and pure. I do try my best to be kind to all, but I want everyone to know that I should be Queen. My bloodline in strong and I am married to someone who should be the anointed King. I should rule justly and fairly. I shall be kind to the poor and needy. Yet, I will know how to be a Queen. I know when to speak and I know when to be silent. I know when to make my move and to hold my turn. There are many rulers in Westeros that would do well to use this strategy. These plans shall fail me not.
Stannis, Renly’s brother, threatens everything we have. Yet, I know we shall win. We are strong and the people love Renly. They are fond of me too. We have much merriment in court and I know we will win the war. It would please me if the brothers united and Stannis bent a knee to us. We would build our forces and take what is ours. I understand how Stannis feels in a way. He is the elder after the late King Robert, but he must go where the popular vote is. People love Renly. People are fear Stannis. If the brothers could have a treaty, we would be stronger than the Lannisters.
The Lannisters: Their names are like poison on my tongue. They are so cruel and they live not by honour. How could they execute the Lady Stark’s husband, Lord Eddard Stark. He deserved that not. I am fond of the Lady Catelyn. I shall support her. We shall support her. Together, we can help defeat these evil lions. I feel great pity for how Winterfell is faring. Robb Stark is a young man. I feel that he is not ready for the war ahead, but he will work hard to achieve it. I do believe he should be King of the North in his own right. Yet, my Renly should be king over all. I keep my thoughts quiet, but I have strong feelings about all.
I must stay strong and persuade my husband to take me to his bed. When I am with child, any concerns will be gone. I shall be the true Queen and he shall be the true King.