Brienne and Catelyn (from A Clash of Kings)

Brienne: “There was always a singer at Evenfall Hall when I was a girl. “I learned all the songs by heart. I remember a woman…she came from some place across the narrow sea. I could not even say what language she sang in, but her voice was as lovely as she was. She had eyes the color of plums and her waist was so tiny my father could put his hands around it. His hands were almost as big as mine.” She hide my hands behind the table, ashamed of the size.

Catelyn: “Did you sing for your father?”

Brienne: shaking my head, staring down at my trencher as if to find an answer in the gravy.

Catelyn: “For Lord Renly?”

Brienne: Never.

Catelyn: “Someday you must sing for me.”

Brienne: “I…please, I have no gift.” “Forgive me, my lady. Do I have your leave to go?”
Above, From A Clash of Kings, by G.R.R.M

I lay in bed: By Brienne a (POV) not from the book.
Brienne:
Tomorrow, I am to meet in secret with the Lady Catelyn. “Nobody must see where I am taking you” Lady Catelyn said sharply., no doubt to discuss her plans for the “Kingslayer”, might be she wants me to travel to Kingslanding and make a trade with the Queen, Arya and Sansa for the Slayer. If she deems me worthy of this great task,  I will do as she bids. The good lady has known much loss, and somehow I feel as though she might look upon me as a daughter. Though the very thought of being in such close proximity to such an abomination without the ability to make him a head shorter, sickens me, and again it is my duty as a true and honorable Knight .

I have been thinking of Renly often and feeling an overwhelming sadness and disappointment in myself, I…I feel like such a failure. Am I ever to succeed in anything? In battle, there is no knight in all the seven kingdoms I fear…I am unsure that my skill in battle will ever match, shadows and sorcery. My promise to Renly, my vow…~sighing~  if I must plow down a thousand knights to get to Stannis, so be it. Renly, ~I whisper, looking to the sky, tears in my eyes~ I…I did love you… you did not return my feelings, this I understood accept  it I did. Still, I wished, that one day you might feel something for me.    It makes no matter, I will avenge you. Please watch over me and give me the strength to do so. ~quietly I sing ~ -Love was within my grasp, but the knight a broken man, stole the heart of golden haired maiden-.

Lady Catelyn, Arya and Sansa need me, this is a chance to do right by someone…someone who believes in me, as Renly did. Failure is no longer an option. ~closing my eyes, I drift off to sleep~

To be continued…